Jupiter enters Libra on September 9th and will stay until October 10, 2017. Jupiter remains in a sign for one year and it works its magic, expanding our consciousness, our boundaries and giving us a feeling of being supported in our endeavors. To use Jupiter to its maximum talent one must be committed to themselves, to either discovering who they are and what they want or pursuing their passion or dreams. When you are centered in self-awareness and not giving your power away, then the universe can step forward and offer you support and inspiration. It can bring you opportunity and show you new paths. However, without faith in your own vision and desires, whatever is offered is often not appreciated or even acknowledged. Learn how to embrace an experience and make it your own. Just because the results were not what you imagined, doesn’t mean that the gift was not a part of the package. It’s important to take things apart and see what worked and what didn’t. Learn, embrace and discard and you’ll find the gift is there — the next step or the actual prize.
Once you’re centered, becoming comfortable with both giving and receiving is important. Both energies are necessary for advancement that doesn’t exhaust and deplete one’s energy. When you help someone else, you feel empowered and in control, and when someone else helps you, chances are you feel vulnerable and indebted – but what you need to realize is that you’re giving a gift to the giver – you’re offering them the experience of sharing their talents with you – you’re empowering them by surrendering for the moment. If your door only works one way, it will get jammed and you’ll feel stuck – balance is not achieved. Everyone favors one side or the other, learning to use both gives you an advantage. Stop and ask yourself, do I have trouble letting others do things for me, accepting help, a gift, an offer? Without the ability to receive, giving will become a burden.
Libra is the sign of relationships. If you are in one, it’s time to improve it and add something new to the package. If you’re not, perhaps this is the year when the right person will cross your path. Business partnerships are included in the energy; alliances will be beneficial so if you’re thinking about it, Jupiter will help you out.
Those who have prepared for success and done the work, these souls have helped Jupiter bring them abundance, expansion, support, opportunity and new paths to follow. If you are wondering where Libra is in your chart and how the coming year will affect you personally and in business, then you should book a reading with Linda Joyce, astrologer and life coach.
Mars has been retrograde for more than a month now and we still have another month to go. It is retrograde in Sagittarius but enters Scorpio at the end of May. How many aha moments have you had? How many fears have you been asked to face and reevaluate? Make the changes that have been revealed. It’s time to break old patterns that are holding you back.
Mars is the ruler of Aries, the firs sign of the zodiac. It represents our vision of who we are and where we are going; it’s assertive, aggressive and judgmental. It’s mission is to divide your path so that you can clearly see what is good and bad, right and wrong. Once that’s clear, it’s easier to make decision on your journey.
When Mars is retrograde, advancement slows down; it’s time to position yourself, strategize — not conquer. We tend to judge ourselves by our advancement which is a mistake. Wise men take their time, they reason, they reflect, they position themselves differently whenever they learn something new. They gain knowledge and wisdom from their experiences, not what they’ve accomplished.
Sagittarius is our beliefs, but they don’t just value what they’ve accomplished but more what they’ve learned. This energy takes us higher and wider, expanding our knowledge and understanding. It can be stubborn and persevering, both a desirable trait and a problem, depending on what one is holding on to. The key is to not get rigid in what you think is right, learn as you go and make adjustments. This is how you grow.
So what can you do? First step is self-acceptance. Get rid of the fantasy of your existence and take a look at your strengths and weaknesses. You don’t have to share them with the world, but you do have to acknowledge what they are. Acceptance is power. Find a way to support yourself on where you are lacking. Don’t put yourself in situations that will perpetuate the problem until you’ve resolved it. Have a plan – you can change it tomorrow but you have to start somewhere. Envision yourself moving forward and being successful. Free your real desires they have the power of motivation and above all make a commitment to what you want. The famous writer and philosopher Goethe has a quote on the subject. “Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back– Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too.” And that is the key. If you commit the universe steps forward and helps you succeed. If you’re not really committed you’re on your own. We all need luck, help and the advantage that comes from making a commitment. Have faith in yourself even if you have to fake it. Work on surrounding yourself with people who believe and support you, friendship is a key to a happy and successful life.
In short, this is a time when great growth can be achieved. You can remove the blocks that are holding you back if you can find the courage to see them clearly. If you need help, don’t hesitate to book a session. It’s my expertise.
Mention Saturn and everyone get’s nervous. It’s time to understand what it really means. Astrologers often refer to it as the taskmaster. Like an Olympic coach who criticizes every nuance of a performance – its aim is perfection – even though it’s an impossible quest. Understood is the knowledge that only by reaching higher and striving to be better can you improve and grow. Saturn entered Sagittarius, the sign of wisdom and beliefs, in December of 2014 and retrograded back into Scorpio in June of this year. On September 19th it will reenter Sagittarius and stay until December of 2017. Sagittarius rules how you acquire wisdom and knowledge, how you deal with differences and new ideas – it’s your beliefs. It’s time to make adjustments, change outmoded ideas and ideals. When you’re in alignment success and happiness are easier to achieve.
Saturn values perseverance, focus and steadfastness – it’s the turtle that wins the race. But what are you persevering for? Are you sure you’re on the right path to achieve your goals? To “know’ what’s right, you have to allow a debate, to see both sides of an issue and not be overinvested in how you get there. Fantasy is Saturn’s enemy, if it’s protected and unchallenged. When they work together everyone wins; dreams become real, but they’re also capable of withstanding the storms of life. Work with Saturn, it’s your friend.
We all make judgments, some of them we’re aware of, some are passed on to us through our parents and some we create just to feel more in charge and less confused. A judgment is a label; once something or someone is defined you feel free to let it go and stop exploring its possibilities. Judgments are short cuts; they make life easier, at least for a while. When you keep judgments too long, they can prevent your growth — after all you’ve given up on going deeper — you’ve moved on.
Saturn can be your hero in the shadow, the one that shows you the way. To follow Saturn you have to be fearless and willing to look at yourself and your choices. You have to be ready to advance and update your opinions of yourself, life and others. With Saturn in Sagittarius you’ll have to get rid of the fears that no longer serve you. It’s time to move the boundaries of your life so you can have a greater life.
The U.S. Congress is a prime example of rigid beliefs; both the Republicans and the Democrats refuse to cooperate, bringing legislation to a standstill. The elections in 2016 will happen with Saturn in Sagittarius and already the political arena has had a taste of its power — it arrived with the name Donald Trump. His sudden appearance as a Republican candidate and his surprise popularity has forced everyone to reexamine their beliefs — after all, he has broken all the rules and his popularity keeps growing. Mr. Trump is Saturn’s ally, he has done the impossible by getting a great many voters out of complacency and offered them an easy fix to their problems – elect Trump president. Trump has conjured up a presence of boldness, American ideals, independence from being bought and selective honesty. He appeals to people’s self-interest and he continuously throws the press and other politicians off balance. He has shattered his competition’s power by not playing by the rules – something everyone else is afraid to do. Once Saturn enters Sagittarius he’ll be under greater scrutiny. Donald is a Gemini, the sign opposite of Sagittarius. Soon he’ll have to prove he has the credentials, knowledge and the ability to lead America, not just shake things up?
Kim Davis of Kentucky is another manifestation of rigid beliefs that refuse to change. Her denial of marriage licenses to gay’s or lesbians, in spite of the recent Supreme Court decision, has landed her in jail. For some she’s a hero and for others she’s standing in the way of their rights. As a Virgo, she’ll get some support with Jupiter in her sign, but eventually Saturn will square her planets. She’ll be forced to comply or resign. She’s entitled to her beliefs, but she can’t impose them on others. As a government employee she must abide by the law of the land.
Pope Francis has rejuvenated the Catholic Church and has brought a renewed spirit of forgiveness and love since his inauguration in 2013. In his recent letter addressing the “Year of Mercy” he expressed a wish to welcome women who have had abortions back into the church. Priests are given the power “to absolve the sin of abortion” for those who seek forgiveness with a “contrite heart.” His emphasis on mercy rather than judgment is the true power of love. However, he’s challenging old beliefs that are less inclusive. The Pope is a Sagittarian, born December 17th so get used to him stirring the religious pot and challenging others to embrace a greater and less judgmental truth.
Europe has its greatest boundary issues since World War 11. Refugees from Syria are flooding into Europe by the thousands. The humanitarian issues are astounding, but there is also fear, fear that this is a hijrah into Europe: the Islamic colonization of Europe. The immediacy of the crisis creates the need for action without reflection. When solutions are not simple, we are thrown into a battle between fear and humanity, between caution and compassion. The inner war has begun; the solution unsure.
To prepare yourself for what Saturn’s entry into Sagittarius means for you, ask yourself where your beliefs are being challenged? Are they holding you back? Do you truly believe in them or are you just afraid of the unknown? Have you isolated yourself because of self-criticism, or have you placed judgments on others to reduce their power and make yourself seem stronger and more important? If you have no boundaries at all, then you’ll need to get them now – add the word “no” to your vocabulary. Saturn is your opportunity to weed out the ideas and ideals that clash with who you really are. It’s time to be authentic and stand in your truth. The clearer you are about who you are and what you want, the easier it is to achieve your dreams.
Venus is ethereal and powerful because it explains how one engages in life through desires and values. A man filled with yearnings becomes more attractive because he is motivated to achieve and has greater courage when it comes to facing his fears and meeting life’s challenges – desires lead to goals. When you cut yourself off from desire, you remove an important source of power. Venus is also the symbol of love and what you consider wealth. Remember, wealth is objective, only you know what turns you on and makes you happy. So listen to yourself, not others and as you change reexamine what you have previously deemed important – what you see may surprise you.
Venus — A Morning and Evening Star
The Babylonians called Venus the double-phased Ishtar — the morning star of war and the evening star of love. Venus journeys no more than 29 degrees ahead of the Sun (Morning Star) or 21 to 29 degrees behind the Sun (Evening Star). When it follows the Sun it represents peace, and its brightness is revealed immediately after sunset. If you are born during this phase you will appear mature and reserved; you strategize when it comes to your emotions rather than just respond to your instincts. And when Venus leads the Sun, you are a Morning Star and considered a warrior. Your nature is more passionate and impatient, independent and intuitive, responding to life instantly, instead of figuring it all out before you take action. Of course, this is only one factor in determining a chart, but Venus is a strong influence.
Venus went retrograde on July 25th and goes direct on September 6th. Venus is retrograde every twenty months for around forty days. This Venus Retrograde has been journeying through the end of Leo, making a trine to Uranus, the planet of change and independence, and a square to Saturn at the end of Scorpio. Saturn sets or resets our boundaries and in Scorpio the old must go because the new is waiting to enter your life. Learning what to let go of is the challenge and Venus retrograde will help you see the light. It’s a reflective time; so don’t fight pondering what’s important to you. It’s time to decide what’s superfluous and get rid of it. The cleaner your shelves are when Venus goes direct, the easier it is to bring in the new. What you need to see is where you have diminished your power by what you valued, change your priorities and you’ll change your life.
On a simpler note, it’s not the best time to begin a relationship; even if it seems to work, the cost will be high emotionally or financially. However, it’s a great time to tie up the lose ends of any old relationships so that you can move forward when Venus goes direct. When it comes to money, items will either cost too much or be offered at a bargain. If you’re not good at discernment and sorting out what’s important, then use this retrograde to improve that skill and don’t commit to anything until Venus goes direct.
If you’d like to know if you’re a Morning Star or an Evening Star call for a reading and look ahead to your future, prepared and armed to take advantage of opportunity and chances to grow.
Sexual Double Standards Still Exist
The recent backlash from Bachelorette Kaitlyn Bristowe’s sex escapade with Nick Viali, one of the finalists on her ABC TV show, has reopened the wound of the sexual double standard. For the last five years I’ve been interviewing men from the age of twenty-nine to seventy for a book I’m writing, “One Hundred Interviews with Men on Sex, Power and Intimacy.” I’m old fashion because of my generation, but I’m certainly not judgmental, I have a modern daughter and I’ve had to adjust. So I thought when I sat down to ask men if they judged a woman for first date sex I would get an evolved response. Their first words didn’t disappoint, “Of course not,” but that statement was immediately followed by one word that is famous for deleting everything that came before it, that word is . . .“but” . . . “but I’ve never had a long-term relationship with anyone who did” or, “I’d never take her home to meet mom.” If you’re shocked, I understand. The picture of today’s dating scene doesn’t match its underbelly. Sex is available because women are liberated and men have welcomed them with open arms. However, what women don’t know is that beyond that perfect, romantic evening that ended in bed, is a question that could be a deal breaker, that question is, “Does she do it with everyone?” If you’re searching for meaning, don’t try too hard, it’s simple, men don’t feel special when sex is easy.
Most men are emotionally insecure. They’ve been asked, since childhood, not to show their emotions, not to cry, to be strong and man up. Men don’t trust their feelings; they trust money, power and success. It’s what the world values, not their sensitive side. They erroneously believe that if they are super successful, they’ll have it all and be happy. Doesn’t the little nerdy guy get the model when his net worth goes up? What amazed me more than the sexual double standard was how little some men cared if a woman was with them for money and power – it’s something they value and so its easy to forgive. And besides, they trust that more than love. Offering your heart can lead to a broken one. One man told me that whenever he’s rejected, he tells himself, “If I had more money she’d never have left.” For men, money seems to be a stronger glue than their hearts.
Competition is in a man’s DNA. They are struggling to stand out, be noticed and valued. They want to feel special, either because they’re rich, powerful, sexy, a fabulous athlete, or the funniest person at a dinner party, it doesn’t matter as long as they stand out. If a woman gives in on a first date, there’s no one to conquer, nothing to fight for, no one to impress. Men want to win you, when you hand them the prize too soon, they feel robbed and they move on.
The double standard is in place for a reason other than tradition; men rely on women for their moral standards. Men can’t trust themselves to do the right thing when lust is activated. It’s a woman’s job to keep a man on the straight and narrow. Men can be players, but a woman has to be pure. In fact, the more deceitful a man, the more he expects his women to be loyal, sincere and someone he can trust.
The truth is Kaitlyn would have been judged a lot less severely for hooking up with a man for money, rather than for emotions and sex. The fact that she is a modern woman who expects less of a double standard is reasonable, until you push below the surface and realize we’re not as advanced as we thought we were. Women are still judged for having sex too often or too soon. The old stereotypes won’t disappear until they’re challenged. It’s the one good thing that has come out of a scandal that should never have happened.
How did you survive the last five months of continuous retrogrades? What did you learn about yourself? Are you ready to embrace change and believe that you have what it takes to live the life you’ve always wanted?
The first planet to go retrograde was Venus in Capricorn. Capricorn, by nature, is slow and methodical and with a retrograde it brings things to a stop. Venus is often underrated in a chart because it rules love – an ethereal and subjective energy by nature. However, love is the glue that keeps the universe together. Many a powerful world leader has been brought to his knees by Cupid’s arrow. Love penetrates our barriers, our outer walls and it gives us a taste of feeling connected to something greater than ourselves. When Venus is in retrograde, there is often a feeling of disconnect, of being alone, of not feeling valued. If you felt unappreciated by the people around you before the retrograde, then those feelings were probably enhanced. Remember, others see your value when you do. Treat yourself with love and respect and you’ll find that others do the same.
Mercury retrograde is a common happening. We have one every three months. Mercury went retrograde three days after Venus went direct. Not much time to take a deep breath. Mercury retrograde doesn’t allow us to move forward, it makes sure we clear our desk of old projects; it brings people from our past into the moment, and throws our normal schedule into chaos. This forces one to slow down and deal with what they may have been avoiding.
The third retrograde was the most challenging — Mars, the warrior planet went retrograde in Libra on March 2nd. Mars took us on an inward journey through our old issues of anger, frustration and denial. If everyone around you seemed upset or perturbed at the smallest indiscretion, now you know why. Mars put you face to face with the truth or what you didn’t want to see. For two months, avoiding your fears was not an option. Mars also rules your vision, so if you are not living your truth or doing the work you love, then you will feel the consequences of making choices that don’t support your soul.
With Mars direct, don’t panic. Things will begin to move and move quickly. If you’ve wanted a new job, you may just get one. If you were fed up in your relationship, then something may happen that gives you the courage to leave. The obstacle in your path will be removed; people will suddenly become available that were not in the past. The more you understand what’s happening, the easier it is to overcome any issue that may be preventing your success.
Astrology is a wonderful way of seeing trends and so are movies. What they share in common is a road map of the purpose, values and intentions that are presented in life, but are often hidden behind the drama of the story. Neptune rules film and our collective spirit; movies that are popular resonate to the heart and spirit of the collective. There is a theme to this year’s Oscar picks for best picture and it has to do with exploring the extremes of our lives. Extremes need special circumstances or a lack of values to manifest. Don’t forget to examine your own life and see where you are living on the edge. There is nothing wrong with pushing the boundaries, just make sure you don’t forget your values when you do. They’re our inner barometer of what’s right and wrong.
Twelve Years A Slave takes us back to man’s addiction to power over others and how the ego can justify cruelty by creating a society with a value system that supports it. In this movie we see Southern Plantation owners and their ability to treat others as inhuman.Chiwetel Ejiofor and Lupita Nyong’o give award-winning performances.
Extremes Social Hierarchy: When a society believes that one person is better than another, then one’s negative ego can emerge. Within many of us is a seed of darkness that just needs permission to show its face.
The Wolf of Wall Street gives us a view of greed and how it can destroy decency. The setting is Wall Street where money trumps values, because it can. Leonardo DiCaprioplays the life of Jordan Belfort, a stockbroker; we see his continuous rise and fall and the loss of all things decent in his life. The lack of values always leads to destruction.
Extreme Wealth: When you can buy your way through life, you don’t learn consequences and sooner or later you self-destruct.
The Dallas Buyers Club explores the early years of Aids. In this film Matthew McConaughey plays a man with HIV who is given 30 days to live. He crosses the border into Mexico to find alternative ways to staying alive. In this film, we see how too many rigid and inflexible rules can be just as destructive as not having any.
Extreme Rules: When rules forget the reason why they exist, then they can do more harm than good.
Blue Jasmine is the story of a socialite, played by Cate Blanchett, whose sense of reality was based on her husband’s bank account – which suddenly no longer exists. She moves in with her struggling sister, played by Sally Hawkins, but is unable to accept her new life. It is her sister who has meaning and finds love; Cate has nothing to cling to except her delusional mind.
Extreme Illusion: In this movie we watch the disintegration of a personality that was built around a sense of superiority based on wealth. Remove extreme wealth and the daily struggles of life return.
Philomena exposes the cruelty of extreme judgment that is often hidden behind the façade of “goodness.” In this film the Catholic Church punishes unwed mothers by selling their children to wealthy Catholic families. Based on a true story, Philomena, played brilliantly by Judi Dench, suffers her entire life from the loss of her son, yet manages to maintain her faith and values in spite of her experience. Her spirit uplifts the movie and brings a powerful message to all who see it.
Extreme Judgment: When one feels they are “right” and refuse any other possibility then they will create their own crisis and unhappiness.
Faith: Faith is absolute, and that in itself is an extreme, because it demands that one rise above and beyond reality to keep love living in one’s heart. This is how miracles occur.
Gravity takes us out of this world and into the universe with Sandra Bullock as Dr. Ryan Stone and George Clooney as Matt Kowalski, a colleague in space. Communication with mission control is lost and Dr. Stone is forced to struggle for survival, but to do that she needs the will to live. The loss of her daughter has never been dealt with emotionally and now she must face all her feelings. Being close to death can often give one a renewed sense of life.
Extreme Physical Environment: When you choose to live in a dangerous place anything can happen. Death is the ultimate extreme and when you face it all your other fears are diminished.
American Hustle takes us into the lives of characters that have lost their sense of self by pretending to be someone they are not – all for the purpose of the scam. Christian Bale and Amy Adams play characters that have thrown away their moral compass and get their excitement from their ability to create illusions that are guaranteed to deceive others with a greedy heart.
Extreme Role Playing: Actors do this all the time for entertainment purposes. Remove the moral Geiger counter from a person’s soul and they’ll eventually self- destruct.
In Nebraska, Bruce Dern plays Woody Grant, a man who has drifted through life, never really embracing it, but rather escaping through alcohol. Will Forte plays his son David, who makes a decision to take a pointless journey with his father who falsely believes he has won a million dollars in Nebraska. A life without meaning, desires and values led him to drink. At the end, a positive desire does emerge and it is the source of father and son uniting and experiencing intimacy for the first time.
Extreme Lack of Purpose: When you live without meaning you live in extreme emptiness and then you must fill it with something – often negative choices.
Her takes us to another extreme – the digital age. Theodore, played by Joaquin Phoenix, a lonely introverted man, falls in love with the voice in his OS (operating system) played by Scarlett Johansson. Here we see a man “imitating” life and not really living it. At first his experience with his OS gives him more than any human can, she is totally present, supportive and interactive. In the end his journey into fantasy leaves him more present in his life.
Extreme Fantasy: When reality is removed from one’s thought process then it’s only a matter of time before “the fall.”
Negative extremes are created by a lack of values or reality. Sure, there is a thrill to living on the edge, going into space, manipulating the ignorance of others so that you feel powerful, but it has consequences. What many don’t realize is that facing yourself, your fears of inadequacy, your sense of hopelessness can also be thrilling once you realize that so much of who you are was created by the opinion and judgment of others – especially your parents. Astrology takes us on a journey from Aries to Pisces, and as we learn skills and gain wisdom so that we can become the masters of our universe. Too many of us get stuck along the way because we don’t know what to do or how to fix what’s not working. The key to learning about yourself is to do for others. Help someone else overcome their fears and you will find meaning in what you do. Then satisfaction will live in your heart and increase your self-worth. Something money can never buy.
I just came out of a Halloween Party on Twenty-third Street in my favorite city in the world, New York, and decided to walk home. I had totally forgotten that the annual Halloween Parade had just finished and crowds of onlookers would be flooding the streets. As I wove my way in and out of the craziest array of fantasies, I smiled and pondered to myself – did one choose their costume to fulfill a hidden desire? If that was true did the man in an orange prison garb with huge chains around his neck and waist actually want to be imprisoned? I shuddered at the thought, no one could get me into that garb; I valued my freedom too much. Ahead of me was a giant gorilla with a wooden cage strapped to the front of his chest. As I passed him I noticed that there was a real live person inside the cage – he was laughing and I laughed with him. How original. As I pushed forward I came face to face with Zorro in a black cape and sword – now that was more to my liking. In college I was a champion fencer. No time to linger in one reality, too many distractions. To my right was a cowboy; to my left a group of skeletons and zombies, I stopped to watch them spill out into the street at Union Square. Crossing the park I headed down University Street and came face to face with Queen Victoria in her long embroidered gown. I bowed just as a group of cheerleaders hurried by; one dropped a golden pompom. I picked it up and found myself face to face with a man with a clear round globe that encased his head; he looked as if he had just landed from another planet. Delightful. I can’t ever remember enjoying a late night stroll so much. How wonderful to have even one day to expose a dark or dangerous part of oneself or just perhaps a fantasy. As I gladly entered my building on Mercer Street I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. Reflected back was a passionate, flamenco dancer in a red and white polka dot ruffled dress. No, I hadn’t danced on the tabletops in reality, but in my mind I had lived the dream. Happy Halloween.
With the fiftieth anniversary of The March On Washington in all the news, I was brought back to my childhood and my first experience with racism. My parents were basically good people, but they were influenced by the times. I was just eight years old and it was the first week of school in St. Paul, Minnesota where I was born. I lived in a German neighborhood; my father had grown up in the house he brought my mother to live in before I was born. I enjoyed growing up there and had lots of friends. One day I came home from school and proudly announced to my mother that I had a new friend, a boy my age. What happened next would stay with me for the rest of my life. She leaned down and asked me what his color was. Her question startled and puzzled me, because I could not see why that was important. I thought for a minute, then answered her with the truth “I don’t know.” She seemed annoyed by my answer. “What do you mean you don’t know?” But the truth was I honestly couldn’t remember, because it wasn’t important to me. What was important was how nice he was and how much fun we had playing together at recess. My mother’s question disturbed me, although I didn’t show it. She had created a feeling of separation between us, a feeling that we were different and that difference wasn’t good although it was never stated. “What’s his name,” she asked and I was happy that I knew the answer, “His name is Tommy White,” I said. Then I asked if I could invite him over to play; she didn’t say no, but I knew it made her uncomfortable. I never forgot our little interaction because the ideals and moral principles that I was taught didn’t fit with this picture. Racism is taught, children don’t judge others by the color of their skin, adults do, and children imitate their parents. I always believed in equality and fairness to all and that was innate in me. When I look back at that little girl, I’m very proud of her for knowing that judging someone for such a superficial reason was wrong. I didn’t realize how amazing that was then, but my ability to keep what I thought was the truth close to my heart in spite of what others thought around me, would turn out to be a talent that would separate me from ideas and a collective consciousness that would only have limited me.